Hi there? What do you do on the internet? Well I usually spend my time on the computer looking for ideas, beautiful places, pictures, make up, etc.. I usually save the things that catch my attention. For today, I just want to share with you some pictures of places that makes you think of love. <3
Have you ever dreamed of being a doctor's wife? Have you ever wondered why mistresses ever exist? Have you ever been at a point where you had to choose between two important persons in your life?
Heart of the matter is the kind of book which raises such questions. The story revolves around Nick, Tessa and Valerie. Nick is at the prime of his career as a surgeon while his wife Tessa quit her job as a professor in the hopes of giving more time for her family. On one hand, Valerie is a struggling single parent to Charlie who becomes the patient of Nick due to a tragic accident.
Sometimes, as we struggle in life and reach for success, we forget what really matters to us. We lose our focus because so many things bother and frustrate us. Changes come and go in our lives. When we find ourselves having a difficult time adapting to these changes, we feel that we don't belong anymore. The world we used to live in suddenly becomes distant and strange. When people change, we think that relationships can't be maintained.
This is the problem with Tessa and Nick. Changes came into their lives - Tessa resigns from her job and stays at home while Nick gets bored with the idea that all Tessa thinks about is managing the home. Things that Tessa didn't notice before gets into her skin now. It's a different environment. Nick tries to cope but he can't, He preoccupies himself with work. The he notices Valerie. The qualities that Tessa had prior to quiting her job, Nick found in Valerie.
In marriage, you're not only thinking of yourself but also of your partner. The other's mistake is also your burden. The other's happiness is shared with you. Both of you have the responsibility to make it work. There should be a balance between time for yourself and time for your family. What Tessa did was she gave all the time in the world to her family and in the process, she lost her identity.
I personally think that women should keep their job even after they get married. I used to dream of becoming a housewife but I guess so many problems can arise from that. Remember that feeling of being tired from school and you feel like you need a vacation? You get a very long vacation to spend more days at home. At first, you enjoy it so much, but then after a few days, you find it boring already. Because there's no balance. Unlike when you are in school, you always learn something new. You may get tired, but you spend time usefully. Work and play should always be equal.
Being in a relationship doesn't mean your world has to revolve around that person. Invest on the time you spend together, and cherish the moments you spend time away from each other. This way, you have something to talk about, because there is something you haven't done together. There's a little element if surprise.
So this post is getting long for a "review." (hehe) I want to share with you what my instructor told the class in one of her lectures... "Changes are good. Embrace them. It makes you appreciate the past and see the beauty of what you have now."
Today, we visited our family who lived a town away from ours. One of my favorite aunts was there (so glad it was her day off from work). She's one of the kindest persons I know. Ten years my senior, she's more outgoing than I am at my age right now. She loves to dress (as proven by the looks of her closet) and would know where exactly to buy the cheapest items. After hours of chit-chat, she brought me to her room to show some really really really nice outfits. But what caught my attention was big plastic box filled with books. Novels. And I suddenly felt that deep longing I knew I had, not so long ago. It was a feeling I know I'll never forget.
Saying that I'm a bookworm is an understatement. I used to have 70+ novels that I have accumulated over time during my high school days. It's a hobby that started when I got inspired by one of my aunts who also loved to read books. I was delighted to find some friends whom I've exchanged books with. Eventually, I found myself saving up my allowances to buy novels from book sales and bookstores. Since then, I and my novels were inseparable. I lived the world written before me and went where the stories took me. I cried and laughed at the same time, not even caring who saw me. Novels made a good escape from the real world - which can be harsh sometimes. I fell in and out of love with the characters I never really met. I went on and on reading my books. Sometimes I even forgot meal times because I was so engrossed in my book and couldn't put it down.
Until I graduated from high school and started to attend university. My Nursing studies made a good mistress and took all of my time. Good thing my books didn't have any sign of life in them or they would have committed suicide the very time I started to abandon them. When I graduated, we moved out of our old house and I decided to sell all my books. I realized I was too much of a dreamer and I somehow thought that if kept all my books with me, I would never be able to successfully deal with reality.
Apparently, I was wrong. Dreams are a good thing. We all start with a dream. Life can be meaningless without our dreams. Life can be dry. I realized that as soon as I saw the books. I started to look at them one by one. My aunt probably saw the longing in my eyes that she readily offered to lend me the books. I took two, and then she suggested two more. I went home, happy with the thought of reading once again. In my troubled life today, I'm sure the books would give me some kind of comfort.
I really had a hard time choosing what to name my blog. A lot of titles came to mind; I was inspired by so many things that my list went very long. I’d like to share a few that I had on my list:
• Chasing happiness
• the happy cloud
• happy talk
•On a higher note
•Repertoire on a cloud
•Ebony and ivory
•The dream bistro
•The rag princess
•Mornings in a cup
•A streak of happiness
•The candy cloud
•On a cloud pillow
•Apple and cinnamon
•One percent ambition
•One way ticket
•Harmony and symphony
•Unraveling the duchess
•Here comes the queen
•Full time duchess
•Sunshine for tomorrow
See? I told you I listed a lot to choose from. Whoever reads this, you’re free to use anything on the list as your blog title/article name. I myself think that they can be used in the future to head journal entries.
So why heartfelt? One afternoon, after I attended the Sunday service I just went through the list again and “heartfelt” just struck me.
“Heartfelt” so sincere and straight to the point. It gives an idea that everything written in this blog came from the heart and it’s true. This blog is meant to contain more than just random thoughts in my head. All my dreams and aspirations in life will be written here; it’s a part of me that I’m sharing to my readers and the rest of the world. At this point, I feel that my life is so confined and that growth is not happening anymore. My spirits are not as high as they were before. I feel so frustrated about dreaming wide awake, thinking that things will be better for me tomorrow. In reality, I could have accomplished so many things if not for the circumstances that I am in now. My motto is carpe diem: seize the day but isn’t this a dichotomy? I feel that my life itself is unfulfilled because of this. I’m tired of just thinking about my potentials. There are so many “what if’s” in my life. I want to be brave and bold, strive in life harder, move forward… I just want to wake up one morning and say to myself with no regret s what Hailey Reinheart told the judges on American Idol when they said her idea of singing Lady Gaga’sunrealeased song was not fit for the contest -- “hey, there was an opportunity and I took it.” I just thought that life is too precious for me to just waste it on my melancholic bouts. I believe that happiness is just within each one of us; it is upto us on how to nurture and unfold it before our very eyes.
I also like the play of words in “heartfelt.” When you break it down, you’ll get the words “heart”, “felt” and “art.” The “art” in the middle is very significant because of my great love for it. I find art in music, fashion, makeup, drawings and just about anything in life. Art keeps me sane. I can’t imagine living in this world without art.
Do you always like dreaming about the future? I admit to being a full time dreamer. As one old song says, “dreams are my reality, the only kind of real fantasy, illusions are a common friend, I’d like to live in dreams.” My ideas bulk up to so much that my brain just wants to explode. Heartfelt is a wonderful way to channel these thoughts.
I sincerely wish that in way or another, this blog will help you as we all go through this exciting journey called life. I am writing my personal experiences and opinion in the hopes that someone, somewhere on this planet will be more optimistic and inspired just because of reading my entries.
Make everyday a heartfelt one and live life to the fullest! Please enjoy reading my blog.